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Mar. 27th, 2010

Wii

A Resolution for a New Decade

You may be wondering why every time I write one of these things, I swear I'm going to write more often and yet I never do. Or maybe you're not. What do I know?

Anyway, it just so happens that every time I say that, life starts getting in the way. Either I'm working too much or I've got some big project in the works or I'm just generally stressed out. In any case, every time I make that promise, it's always a couple of months before I get around to writing another entry.

So now I'm thinking, why should I bother making a promise like that at all? Instead of thinking, "Wow, it sucks that I promised everyone I would write sooner and I didn't get around to it until now," what I should be thinking is, "Wow, I wrote a blog! Good for me!"

It's not just writing updates, though. I'm like that with a lot of things. I will set numerous, difficult goals for myself and succumb to self-hatred when I don't finish them, instead of being proud of any progress I've made.

But hey, don't think I don't see you out there, pointing your finger and going, "Yeah, you do do that," all the while denying you don't do the exact same thing. Most of us are at least a little guilty of being too hard on ourselves.

So here's what I'm proposing: A resolution not just for me, but for all of us. Not just for the new year, but for the new decade and beyond. Let's resolve not to set such impossible resolutions, or to beat ourselves over the head when we can't do everything in a day.

So maybe, at the end of the day, our houses aren't spotless, but we did manage to finish up a few rooms. So we haven't found true love, but we did allow ourselves to benefit from the things we learned from relationships that didn't work out. So we didn't become billionaires, but we did do a little better at saving more and spending less. So we don't look like supermodels, but we did manage to eat a little healthier or get out for a run.

The point is, we need to learn to give ourselves credit for our small victories.

By no means am I saying we ought to become complacent. If you're thinking that, because you made your bed, it gives you license to do nothing for the rest of the day, that's going a little far. But if you've been at work all day and still manage to clean your room and do your laundry when you get home, go ahead and pat yourself on the back.

My hope for this resolution is to relieve the world of a little bit of its self-loathing. The message that we get all too often is that, if we aren't perfect, we aren't good enough. I'm here to start the revolution, and to tell you that you don't need to be impossibly perfect to be good enough. As long as you do your best, it will be more than sufficient.

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY: Why is it that, every time they show a still shot on a documentary, they feel the need to pan in on it slowly? Is it to keep up the illusion that we're watching a movie and not looking at pictures? Because that's stupid.
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Aug. 20th, 2009

Happy

A Brief Note Concerning Updates to Come

Well hello there, dear friends and family! It's me, your favorite blogger, back from yet another extremely long absence from the Intarwebs. So I'll bet you're all wondering what kept me this time, right? Well, it's mostly due to the fact that, a little over a year ago, I sold my soul to a very large rodent to pay the bills, and that's taking up most of my time. Other than that, I've been suffering lately from crippling writer's block. I've been attempting to squeeze out bits of creativity for my screenplay and my "children's book," and once I've worked on that for a while I don't have much left for essays and updates. So what now? Well, fortunately for those of you absolutely hankering for something interesting, (or just something, period), to read, there is a solution! Over the past few months I've seen a resurgence in those lame surveys that used to pop up all the time on the MySpace bulletin board. The difference now is that, instead of me simply finding them and filling them out due to boredom, I've gotten them from being tagged in them on Facebook. As it is, they've been sitting in my notes for months, but I always figured I should eventually get around to doing them, seeing as my friends were nice enough to tag me in them. For those of you with an appetite for something more interesting, fear not. I'm going to do my utmost to write something real every once in a while. These surveys will just serve as filler when I've nothing better to say. Feel free to discard them at your discretion. OR, fill them out and send them back to me! I would love to read what you all have to say. So let's get to it!

Jan. 1st, 2009

Depressed Cat

Happy New Year! (SUBTEXT: Good Riddance, 2008)

So, we've reached the end of 2008 at last. (Oh, thank God.) And as we jump headlong into 2009 we can look forward to new beginnings and fresh attempts at righting old wrongs. Basically, with each new year we gain another chance to recreate ourselves.

And so, in the spirit of the occasion, I present my list of resolutions that I probably won't keep.

Ha! Just kidding.

I hope...

I Resolve... )

Dec. 24th, 2008

Gay Sailor

Christmas Time Is Here Again? Question Mark?

Before I start...yes, I realize that Christmas Day has come and gone already, but most of these thoughts were manifested and written down a couple of days before the fact, and so let's just all pretend it's like December 23rd again so this will make more sense.

There's a familiar feeling that fills the air. Down here in my neck of the woods, the infamous Southern California heat has finally, (and I mean finally, with a huge giant sigh to accompany the word), faded and given way to a brisk chill and the occasional rainstorm. Those of us long prepared have dug our cold weather accessories out from hibernation, and those surprised by the drastic temperature change have stripped clean the barely restocked shelves at Target. Everywhere you go, brightly-colored lights charm the eyes, and our ears are oh-so-merrily assailed by holiday tunes like Gene Autry's "Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer," which, incidentally, has to be the most overplayed Christmas song of 2008. That, and Josh Groban's version of "O Holy Night," which would be pretty good if it didn't seem like he forgot the lyrics halfway through the song. People the world over are rushing to the stores to buy last-minute gifts for their loved ones, and in so many homes, families have gathered together to talk and laugh and reminisce over a mug of hot chocolate or cider, bake delicious and festive treats, and bask in the glory of a blazing fire and a full and spectacularly-decorated conifer.

And me? I'm...not feeling a thing.

It's weird for someone like me, who has always been so childlike and giddy around Christmas time, to have gotten to this point, a mere day before Christmas Eve, and still feel like it's just another day. However, it's not entirely difficult for me to understand why.

I write to you, dear friends, from the View Station in Disney's California Adventure, which, if you don't know already, is one of the most boring places on the face of the Earth. Were it not for a fact that I always carry a notebook with me, I would be standing here at this stupid counter twiddling my thumbs for lack of anything better to do. And I, unlike most people, don't have Christmas to look forward to for a well-deserved break. I'll be here again on Christmas Day. Not in the View, of course, (thank God...), but working. And given the fact that the members of my immediate family are up either in Nor-Cal or Seattle, I won't be able to see them this Holiday season. For the first time in nearly twenty-three years, I won't be home for Christmas. And Christmas without my family just doesn't feel like Christmas at all.

It also doesn't help much to compare this Christmas to the last one, when everything seemed just so perfect. Last year's Christmas season was chock full of memories that I will never, (or, at the very least, not anytime soon), be able to recreate, like meeting my beautiful niece, seeing it snow on Christmas for the first time in my entire life, and watching It's a Wonderful Life with a mug of spiked hot chocolate, a roaring fire, and my then-sweetheart cuddled up with me underneath a big, fuzzy blanket. And so here I stand, watching countless guests bypass my counter to get to the funny hats they want to try on, and I just keep on praying for a little bit of Christmas cheer to come my way.

ADDENDUM PER DECEMBER 25TH: I must say that Christmas Day had its high points. Sure, it was weird whenever someone said "Merry Christmas" to me and I'd go, "What? Oh...yeah, it is Christmas, isn't it?" And it was strange to be working on Christmas Day for the first time ever. But admittedly, watching Song of the South in the characters' break room with Winnie the Pooh, Tigger, Eeyore, Brer Fox and Brer Bear while hiding from the spastic rain is something that will live on in my memory for years to come. And once I made it out to Pasadena and got to spend a few precious moments with some cousins that I never get to see, things seemed a whole lot brighter. Even congested sinuses and a monster sore throat didn't seem all too bad when I finally got the chance to be around family for the Holidays.

Dec. 23rd, 2008

DysFUNctional

Beating the Bad Luck and Post-Graduate Blues

I believe I have officially broken my record for longest hiatus taken from blog-writing, save for those few times in high school and early college when I hadn't anything particularly interesting to say and so I kept dropping old journals, waiting a long time, then starting new ones.

The difference now is that I've been somewhat proud of my blogs in recent years and have no plans to "start afresh" as it were. Plus, this time, I've got an excuse. Several, in fact.

My lack of blogging, or, truthfully, writing in general, stems mainly from a serious lack of time and motivation. Or...well, really, just motivation. Since summer has ended, I'll be honest, I have way too much free time on my hands. (So who wants to hang out?) So it's really kind of a loss of interest in...oh, let's face it...just about everything. Except, of course, TV on DVD.

And on THAT Note... )

Feb. 26th, 2008

Sylar

ABSOLUTELY THE BEST UPDATE EVER!!! EVERYONE READ!!!

This is long, (as usual), but definitely worth reading all the way through. So do it!

Remarkable, how sometimes the most mundane things can change your life in the most unexpected ways.

Take, for instance, a piano. Just an ordinary baby grand piano in the basement of the music building. Until Thursday, nothing at all to suggest that it was in any way unusual or special.

It Gets Better...I Promise! )

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY: If there’s one thing I’ve learned from eating knock-off cheese curls from Albertson’s, it’s that, when you’ve got a hankering for Cheetos, nothing else but real Cheetos is going to do it for you.

Oct. 5th, 2007

Link

SWEENEY...BLEEDING...TODD!!!

Fans of Stephen Sondheim / Broadway musicals / Tim Burton / Johnny Depp / gothic, scary things, rejoice...

The official trailer for Sweeney Todd is finally out!

WARNING: For those of you who are familiar with the story of Sweeney Todd, you'll know why I put this warning here. For those of you unfamiliar with the play, you might want to know before you watch this that it's a bit...dark and creepy. It's not too bad, it's just not something you'd want the young'uns watching. BUT...you do get to hear Johnny Depp sing for a few seconds!




Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street is a film adaptation of Stephen Sondheim's musical of the same name. It is set to be released on December 21st of this year. It is directed by Tim Burton and stars Johnny Depp, Helena Bonham Carter, Alan Rickman, Sacha Baron Cohen, (yes, that's right, that was Borat you saw in there near the end, in case you were wondering), and Timothy Spall.

RANDOM QUOTE OF THE DAY: "Fries are always community property." - Richard
RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY: People have been saying ever since its release that I needed to see Accepted because it was so good and so funny...but why did no one see fit to mention to me that a good portion of it was filmed on my campus?

Sep. 30th, 2007

Freddie

An Apology

I am not a nice person.

Not a pleasant realization, but a true one nonetheless.

Click HERE to Find Out What the Hell I'm On About )

RANDOM THOUGHT OF THE DAY: Why does every movie set in DC have to have some kind of inspirational “talking to the Lincoln Memorial” scene?

Sep. 7th, 2007

Wii

Baby Bella

This will be a quick update. I just have a couple of announcements.

The first is that I'm currently working on an entry for you all. It's been in the works for quite some time, and will probably be released in a few separate pieces, as it's so long. Still, I just wanted to let you all know that I haven't forgotten about you. It's just taking me a while because it's so hefty. Hopefully it should be out within the next couple of days.

Now, onto the main reason for this post:

As some of you may already know, my big sister Sara gave birth at about one o'clock this morning, (September 7th), to a beautiful baby girl. I'm sure that she will be sending out an e-mail soon with pictures and all of the specifics. Regrettably, I was the only member of my immediate family not present when Bella was born, but such are the burdens of being a college student, I guess. Either way, I just wanted to write a congratulatory update for Sara and Bella.

I Love All of You Very Much, and I'll be in touch with another update soon.

Jul. 21st, 2007

Harry

The Aftermath of the Grand Hallows Ball

WARNING: This entry is chock full of Harry Potter geekdom. There are no spoilers, so those of you planning on reading the book are safe. However, those of you who honestly don't care about Harry Potter whatsoever might feel the need to skip this one, unless of course you love my writing style just that much.

HARRY FREAKIN' POTTER!!! )

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